Updated: Jun 29
"Go big or go home."
I've internalized that message since I was a kid. What the phrase doesn't tell you is that going big can be scary. Sometimes, we'd actually rather shrug our shoulders and head straight on home.
Why? Well, because when you "go big" there's more to lose. And, more often than not, other people are watching to see what happens. But once you make the decision to go big, that's when things begin to change.
Quitting drinking in a world full of pro-alcohol messages is the equivalent to "going big." Being open and vulnerable about your decision makes your "big" a whole lot bigger. While it's easier to continue to drink and ignore your problems, the saying goes to show that nothing will ever change unless you do something remarkable.
When I quit drinking, the only thing that kept me sane was reading other sober stories. These authors were vulnerable enough to share their recoveries with the world, and not everything was always pretty, either.
When I was at my lowest, I was inspired by those who decided to go big. The people in life who choose to go big when everyone else is sitting at home are the people that impact us the most.
A few months ago, I reached out to Annie Grace, hoping to receive an informational interview where I could talk to her one-on-one to hear more about her story. A few weeks went by, and I didn't hear back. I wasn't expecting much, since she's a successful author and I'm a 23 year old who she's never met. But then, something incredible happened.
Her team reached out to me, asking if I would be willing to share my story on their blog, and be interviewed by her for her podcast! Suddenly, the roles switched, and I wasn't the one doing the interviewing... I was the one being interviewed.
Of course, I decided to do both the blog and the interview. I was extremely nervous for the interview, and crafted my blog to perfection. The point is, I wasn't afraid to go big. I knew that I had nothing to lose, and I was ready to walk away with nothing at all. After all, I could still go home if going big didn't work out (kidding).
I want to add that after I got off of the interview, my bones were rattling with anxiety. I felt like I had botched the entire thing and made a fool out of myself. I just wanted to forget about it.
Then, a few weeks later, I got an email that the podcast had uploaded to her channel. I felt the nerves trickle back up my spine, and I wanted to hide away. However, after I listened to it, I was extremely proud of myself. Sometimes, you can't see the rewards of "going big" right away. Eventually you will, though.
I've realized that big things happen when you allow yourself to aim high. I had the opportunity to share my story with Annie Grace's listeners, and to me, that means everything. I became one of the stories that I admired when I was at my lowest. To me, there is no greater feeling.
Yes, I quit drinking when I was 23. But I also decided to write weekly blog posts about it for my friends and family to see. Then, I decided to go bigger and put my face to my story on Annie Grace's podcast. I've officially opened myself up to the potential of being ridiculed and criticized.
I'm not here to toot my own horn. I'm here to tell you that there is exponential growth from going big and stepping outside of your comfort zone. It's not the easiest option, but it's by far the most fulfilling.
Do I still sometimes feel like an annoyance to people by sharing my blog on my Instagram? Yes. Do I stop doing it? No. Why? Because I'm choosing not to go home. I'm choosing to go big, despite it being terrifying.
I hope that at the end of the day, going big sounds a lot better than going home. It can be scarier, yes. But this is where the magic happens.
Here's the link to my blog on Annie Grace's website:
& here's the link to my podcast interview: